Finally I discovered what was making me disappointed. It was me!
I was caring about other's opinions and looked for their view about me, but I discover that it was wrong to live under their supervision.
Now I broke this rule and decide to live my life as I want not as others want, because it's mine.
If I care about their speech I'll never go on in my life.
In Sudan every body want to control and order you to do what he want, so if you do they will leave you safe, but if you don't you will live a hard life until you do.
This time I decide to challenge myself and the community to live better life in bad conditions. I'm asking myself why I was weak as Sudanese citizen – not all – and give up to others.
What will happen if anybody live as he want – with religious customs - ?
It will be better if we do, Right?